Sunday, June 14, 2015
Pool day more then just a bikini
So this last Thursday I did something that is hard for most trans women I bought a bikini and was motivated to feel pretty in it and my own skin. I have a wife who is super supportive and her family although sometimes lacking in understanding is very supportive of my exploration of gender and transition. This being said we thought it would be a good thing to spend a day relaxing at the pool being that our life has been a higher level of continuous anxiety then ever before.
We woke up and got dolled up and and got dressed for a day at the pool. And it felt amazing not putting on the same old board shorts that I had grown so accustomed to. Instead a cute bikini with a bright pink top and cute skirted bottoms and a nice cover dress for when we were out and about.
I have been lucky enough to feel girly and pretty in most outfits I choose to wear but one thing that's hard for all women is feeling pretty in skin that you spend most of the time covering up. For me my stomach and back are areas I find hard to except about myself. But in that moment we're I finally took off my dress and said to myself that this is me and I have to be ok with it before I can expect others to was a beautiful moment.
Long story short we spent the day sun bathing and swimming and talking and Chelsea's mom and dad even joined us and in that moment I truly felt excepted because I allowed myself to be vulnerable and I wasn't disappointed.
Btw. This was my first time wearing a bikini in public and I feel confident enough to do it more often