Sunday, June 14, 2015
Life and why I have been gone
After trying to get pregnant for a while me and my wife are finally only a week away from giving birth to Our baby Charlie. This is the most amazing feeling and beautiful moment in our life, we are both nervous and anxious and also excited for what the future holds for us. Not only do we have our baby Charlie on the way but we also bought a beautiful Victorian house that was built a 130 years ago which we have slowly been fixing up and making it into out dream home for our soon to be family of three. Needless to say I have been extremely busy.
With being busy it's easy to loose track of ones self about what makes you whole and complete and truly I am doing pretty good, with a job that fits my life style a wife who gets and understands me and is my best friend that I want to share everything with. And of course Charlie.
But lately I have been sacrificing my progression through my transition for balancing all the many other aspects to my life this is no one persons fault except my own I chose to stop going to therapy and seeing the doctor about hrt (hormone replacement therapy) I weighed my decision out and although in a huge way it's self deprecating I know that my plan in the relative short term is to fully transition and I have to be ok with my transition and everybody's transition looks different. That mine may take longer then the next trans person. I am blessed to have so many people around me who support my decision to transition and my openess of gender fluidity in my life within this past 8 years.
Life is short live it to its fullest and own the decisions you make in the end you are the only one that controls your happiness